I remember a moment in first grade when the teacher was talking to me about something at her desk. The only part I really remember is her saying that I was too sensitive. That seemed to be a pattern in my life. I "felt" everything. I was told to toughen up and not let things get to me, but that was my personality.
Too much sun gives me a headache, my hands hurt to the bone if they get the slightest cold, Iget sick in too much heat or too much activity. I have a sensitive stomach. I was even sensitive to other people's feelings who sat next to me. I could "feel" their depression or excitement or whatever. I have allergies to the point that I have to take medication daily, I have problems with dairy, and a doctor told me to mention to other doctors that I may not be allergic, but am more sensitive to side effects of new medications.
Some people thought I had ESP or Telekinisis because I had so many problems around electricity, and watches and can openers. Even the machine that checks your blood levels broke when I had my blood tested a few years ago. I am very sensitive to weather, both physically and emotionally, and I am sensitive to animals and children, especially if they are in pain.
I bring this odd thing up because maybe it has something to do with Fibromyalgia. I have hearing problems, so it's possible that my other senses are in overdrive, but maybe that's one factor that caused the Fibromyalgia. I have suffered from a headache all day today, and I'm guessing it's because a snowstorm is in the area, or something else is happening that I am unaware of. I get pains before rain or on a cloudy day, like an old person. If one of my boys has a headache, even many miles away, I often get one too.
I have high anxiety, and am suseptible to depression. I cannot be in the same room when violence is on the TV, and I have to turn the volume down when the program gets loud. I have stopped watching anything with too much drama or excitement and stick to shows that make me laugh.
I think Fibromyalgia is a disorder that is ahead of it's time, although it has been around for a long, long time. I say that because we have not studied enough about sensitivity in people, and it seems that one common mark of Fibromyalgia patients is they are very sensitive to stress of any kind, and changing conditions. Doctors like symptoms that make sense, but sensitivity is not easily seen in a person. We get diagnosis's that make us feel like we are nuts, but maybe we are just more sensitive than the common person.
I'd like feedback on this from other people who have Fibromayalgia, if you were considered a sensitive child, or seem to be more sensitive to things as an adult.
Maybe we will find answers together and won't feel so alone in our strange sensitivities.
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