Fibro Fog

I found a quiet moment in this day and thought of all my friends who might be suffering right now after overdoing it so that everything is done for Christmas.  Because on holidays or any special events, that's what we do! 

My son and his girlfriend were here all day, and it was such a joy to have them here in the house.  But with them being here, I see even more that my brain doesn't work the way it used to.  I try not to think about it because what you think about makes it real, and I try very hard to stay positive, even when I feel like I'm losing my mind.

I have heard of the phrase "Fibro Fog", but until you experience it, you don't know what it is like because there is no way to describe it.  But I can tell you what it looks like.  I spilled a entire glass of soda because I couldn't find my regular glass with the wider bottom.  I feel more anxious because I don't know if I'm talking too much or not giving enough explanation.  People have to explain the same thing to you over and over because you don't get it.  Your memory gives out on you when you most need it.  I can talk a lot, but I can't remember certain words when I need them.  If I don't get my favorite chair to sit in, I'm disoriented.  You have to check a list to see if you have all the important things done.  I am indecisive about EVERYTHING.  You feel out of control over things that you used to be in control of.

I tell myself it is stress, or being tired, and it certainly could be.  I did not sleep last night at all.  I went to bed at 1:30, and tossed and turned-violently, until 3:45 when I gave up and went to my chair in the living room.  So maybe it is about stress and being tired, but I'm glad to have a name like Fibro Fog because it makes it simple and even funny.  And like all fog, at some point the sun will come out and it will dissipate for a while.
May your night be peaceful, comfortable, and full of love.