Feeling Useful

I've just finished putting in my Avon order for the night, and it's a satisfying feeling.  I LOVE the Avon company, and my customers/friends.  I have a team of recruits that I cherish with all my heart, which has been an unexpected blessing. 

I'm certainly not rich in financial gain at this point with my Avon business, but it has given me something far beyond riches.  It has given me a reason to get out of bed in the morning.  Especially on these dark January days when motivation competes with depression, and creativity competes with fatigue. 
I encourage you to find something that makes you feel useful, and don't worry if it makes money or not.  We need creative activity, no matter what our physical capability.  Avon makes me feel like I have something to offer others, and gives me hopes and dreams for my future. 

I have limits on what I can do, not just from Fibromyalgia, but also because I have severe hearing impairment, and I have anxiety from Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.  It's easier to find what I can't do than what I can do.  But that's not the attitude that is going to get me up in the morning. 

When I wake up the first thing I'm aware of is screaming pain and a heaviness that seems to hold my body down in the bed.  But then, as I slowly come to life, I think about what I wrote down the night before on my morning letter (a different blog coming up).  That tells me that I might have a customer coming by today, or orders to put in, or maybe the UPS is bringing my orders today.  So I get some heat on my back and pills to working on the pain, and start my morning prayers, all the while considering how much time I have before I must deal with the day's business.

If you don't have something in your life that gives you a feel of self worth, then reach deep into  your heart and ask what makes you happy.  We must stay positive.  There is no other choice.  It's not a risk to make yourself happy.  It's a risk not to.