Monday, January 2, 2012

Chronically Tired (Exhausted)

By Theresa Blume
Oh, how I wish I were a bear!  I could hibernate all winter and no one would think it was strange.  First of course I would eat double my weight in food in the fall, and then find a nice cozy cave and warm blankets and just drift off into wonderful sleep.
Back to reality.  I'm not a bear!  I only have Chronic Fatigue with Fibromyalgia so I just WANT to sleep the whole winter away.  The one big problem is I don't sleep at night!  So I've come up with a good solution.  Sleep when I feel like it. 
So far it looks like this:
The day begins (not really) at 5 in the morning when I stiffly get off the bed, grab a pain pill and allergy pill, get the heating pad and put it on my back.  Fall asleep till 7 or 8.
Get off the couch, go back to bed.  Sleep until 11.
Force FORCE myself to get up and get a shower.  Get dressed.  Feed the cats.  Fall asleep on the couch sitting up till 1.
The afternoon is BEARABLE until about 4:00.  Absolutely can't stay awake so I crawl back into bed for a couple hours.
Eat something for supper.  Stay awake until 9:00.  Fall asleep unable to keep my eyes open until-what time is it now?  11:00pm.  Awake, don't feel too bad. 
Now the question, should I take this wonderful feeling that I have for the first time today and take a sleeping pill or muscle relaxer to force myself to go to bed at what society calls a decent hour?  Or should I try to accomplish everything I couldn't do all day so I can catch up.  If I force myself to sleep, I will still be the same way tomorrow.  If I don't, I will still be the same way tomorrow.
I would like to know what you would do!

"People, even more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed; never throw out anyone." — Audrey Hepburn, actress and philanthropist

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